Mondays *sigh*

I think Mondays are the absolute worst! I seem to be even more moody and stressed knowing I have a lot to get done. Today just seems to be the longest days of my life. I’m not sure if it’s because my work load today is ridiculous or I’m just worried about things out of my control.
I can always give advice my favorite line is ” if you can do something about it change it and if you can’t don’t dwell on something you can’t change” that’s what I say, but when it comes to taking my own advice I fall short. It’s seriously so frustrating.
Anyway sorry peeps I didn’t mean to rant so early in the day, but I do hope things get better because today I’m just not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. (This picture made me smile just when I needed it)

Another bites the dust.

Today ideas really looking forward to going out with my friends. Now I feel like crap. I was talking to a guy I could possibly really be into he was saying all the right things to make me feel special, wanted, beautiful, and that maybe he’d be different. Not even after countless times I told him I wouldn’t have sex he isn’t he didn’t care that we would wait for me because I was worth it. You want to know how long this one lasted? 7 days. Just when I was starting to believe him. He ended up doing what all the others before him. They stopped texting me sweet things, no more pet names, no more sweet talk it changed to cold, short and rude messages. I really can’t stand going through this again. Why do they stick around and then leave when they can’t get what they want? I told him from the beginning I was different. Do men just try in hopes to change my mind? I don’t know, but every time it happens I feel a little emptiness. Am I not worth waiting for? Why do guys only want me for my body? Do I give off the vibe of a hook up kind of girl? Frankly, I’m tired, disappointed, heartbroken, and feeling pretty low right now. It’s not even that I liked him that much I just hate that guys just want to use me. Thats what breaks my heart every time. Times like these make me feel like why do I even bother to wait if things like this always happen. I don’t know how much longer I can wait around for the nice guy to sweep me off my feet, respect my decision, appreciate, and love me the way I am.😔💔